Carry Me Home - Music Signs

Carry me home, when the shadows come to take me away - lay down my bones, knowing I’ll be in a better place, release my soul, carry me home.

I couldn’t have asked for more direct lyrics, more blunt guidance, and more meaningful soul words, than this song. It played twice, skipping on Pandora, and then playing my FAVORITE Three Days Grace Song that I consider directly linked to my mother, and her abuse.

I love how music speaks to me.

I sat and looked over the words, listening to this new song and hearing it for the first time, the second time…

Then, hearing my old ‘favorite go-to’ when feeling my rage. I was working with the radio station, hating my mother, drinking through my anger in my 20’s and was sweating to the music of Three Days Grace when they did this song for the first time. I saw them from behind, the people smashing into one another - I found peace in this angry song - and played it each time I was trying to live through the nightmare of my mother.

Now, as I finally lay her to rest and start telling, purging the story, I can hear this song for the thousandth time and hear a new message:

I am taken back to Fred Rogers, and taming the anger inside us, and having the choice to hear both songs, and to feel something other than rage.